Ah ha!

I did a little research tonight and found that one of the drugs that I still have to take as part of my experiment actually has severe side effects (for me). The side effects include: weight gain, irritability, extreme tiredness or sedation (it has been hard to stay awake lately) and.... depression!!

Everything I have been feeling and wrote earlier still stands, but it made me feel a little better to know that my inability to control my sadness may have had a little help. I won't be on these drugs much longer (a few days maybe, hopefully) and may return to my usual sunny beachloving self, although with the weight gain, I won't be beachin' it until it is gone ;)